one of my aunts died

[[WTF]]

I found out today that one of my aunts died, she had cancer, 2 or 3 different types from what i know, anyway we weren't really close, in fact i didn't really know much about her until a few years ago, i knew she existed etc, but not anything more.

I don't really feel anything about her passing, I didn't even know she was sick, I get the feeling i should show something, but i can't fake something i don't feel.

her funeral is next week, and i haven't been told/asked if i should/want to go, i hate family things, i don't know why, i would kill for them but i don't like being at family gatherings.

i'm stuck not knowing what i should.

thats all i guess, i'll try and figure out what i'm going to do.

[Brim]

I'm sorry to hear that.


As for what you should do, it's always nice to put in a few kind words.

[[WTF]]

thanks and yeah, i guess, but i don't know what to say, she was my dads sister, and he's not here, he's on the road, they were close, i guess i'll know what to do when he gets here.

[[WTF]]

so the funeral was today, holy shit i was bored, but holy shit she knew a shit load of people, i was expecting close family,a friend or two, but there was like 100-150 people, i knew exactly 8, maybe, people cried, people laughed, this makes me a dick but i just wanted to go, i wore my mohawk, i stood out, people looked at me and were like, what you don't feel anything, i'm glad i went but, casue the shit i subconsciously got there would have been worse had i not gone, my dad and my cousins and shit made it good, one of my fave relo's took me aside and i'm glad you came, but you know what, this made me think, no way in fucking hell is my funeral going to be like this, i want fucking large bass and booze and vids and people are going to have fun, i get it tho, old people have old funerals, and even tho this was 'dubbed' a celebration it really wasn't, i'm just hated being i guess thats why im ranting, i'm glad its over.

[hungraa]

glad you went. even if u didnt know her its still good to pay your respects.

[Brim]

Going to the funeral was a nice gesture, despite you feeling uncomfortable and such.

On the topic of funerals: the the tribute to death part is fine and dandy, but a lot of people never see the opportunity to celebrate life--the life of the person, and life itself.

A few years ago, I went to a friend's funeral. This guy was Mario's #1 fan. His father knew this, so in the middle of his eulogy, he played the Super Mario Bros. Level 1 theme. It was really affecting; the theme's raptness of the theme and funeral's somberness mixed together so purely and emotionally. There is no better tribute to him than that song.

[[WTF]]

yeah i wished the people there had celebrated her life like they said they would, i get the whole mourning thing, but it was meant to be a celebration, but turned to a sad occasion, and look i know it wasnt meant to be fun, but most of us came becasue we understood it wasnt going to be a traditional funeral, from what i learnt about my aunt, she would not have liked how it went, but its over now, so let bygones be bygones.

[Brim]

As many wishes as the departed make, the ultimate decision as to how the funeral is run is up to the grieving party. Which kind of sucks when you think about it.

[[WTF]]

yeah, like i said my funeral is going to rock, and my friends and family better fucking do so or ima haunt they asses, fo sho.